Black Femme Fatale

March 9, 2010

Spring has almost Sprung (my week in pictures)

Filed under: jolie — Jolie Fatale @ 3:56 pm

I’m super excited but I’m still on a mission to BURN THIS WEIGHT off of my body. I’ve been trying to maintain my workouts although my work schedule has been crazy.

I look a lil crazy after a Jillian Workout:

looking a little rough

Last week I made my own whole wheat crust to make into a pizza it was GREAT! I promised Chan I’d post the recipe so better late than never:

Servings: Makes 2 thick crust pizzas or 4 thin crust pizzas

Ingredients:

Whole Wheat Pizza Dough

  • 2 1/2 cups whole wheat flour
  • 1 cup unbleached all-purpose flour
  • 2 packages dry active yeast
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 1/2 teaspoon sugar
  • 1 1/2 lukewarm water from the tap
  • 1/2 teaspoon olive oil
  • Crushed garlic and Italian herbs
  • Flour for the work surface
  • Sprinkling of   cornmeal

Directions:

Place flour, yeast, salt and sugar and mix. While mixing, gradually add water and knead with hands until dough is firm and smooth (about 10 minutes)

Pour oil down inside of bowl. Move the dough around the bow coat inside of bowl and all surfaces of dough with the oil. Cover bowl with plastic wrap. Let rise in warm spot until doubled in bulk, about two hours. ( I let mine sit in a  warm place  for 2 hrs and then in the fridge for about 2 days)

Preheat your oven to highest setting, 500° or 550°F. Preheat oven one hour ahead. Punch dough down, cut in half. On generously floured work surface, place one half of dough.

By hand, form dough loosely into a ball (I added crushed garlic and some Italian herbs), stretch into a circle. Using a floured rolling pin, roll dough into large circle until very thin. Don’t worry if your circle isn’t perfect and if you get a hole; just pinch edges back together.

To prevent dough from sticking to counter, turn dough over, add flour to dough, counter and rolling pin as needed. Sprinkle pizza pan or cookie sheet generously with cornmeal. Transfer dough to pizza pan or cookie sheet with no lip. Add toppings. (My toppings were portabellas, fresh jalepenos, chicken sausage, spinach and mozzarella)

Slide dough onto pizza pen or place cookie sheet with pizza on bottom rack. Bake 10–12 minutes or until golden. Slice and serve immediately.

yummo in my tummo

I’ve also been trying to remember to drink my smoothies in the morning instead of my new bad habit that I’ve picked up again of a Venti Soy Caramel Macchiato.

Jolie’s Smoothie

4oz pomegranate juice

4oz of light soy milk

4oz of strawberries

4oz of blueberries

½ frozen banana

2 tbsp of flax meal

Its yumtastic..

I’ve been rocking my heels instead of my flats around the office

disregard my messy desk

I went out with the ex on Friday to his cousin’s Fish Fry. We spent most of the day together and I ate terribly.

My outfit

Let me break it down:

1 slice of my healthy pizza

1 hotdog stuffed pretzel from this Amish Market he loves

4 liters of water

3 ribs (he makes them and their smokey goodness is just irresistible)

½ cup of Amish Potato Chips

1 deviled egg

1 solo cup of Ciroc Coconut

1 solo cup of Level 1 Vodka

Let’s just say the night ended with me

  1. Not embarrassing myself or him around his family
  2. Asking him to pull over on the way home to do my Emily Rose impression (lots more happened involving this roadside incident but will NOT be included in this post..lol)

The next day I woke up in his bed super embarrassed. He was traveling out of town for the day with his cousin so he drove me home in my car and his cousin followed. It took me until Sunday evening to recover.

I definitely learned a lesson and will NOT be drinking or eating crazy foods. I don’t think it was the liquor so much that made me throw up but the total abandonment of my healthy living for a day that made my body say NO NO NO….

I’m back on the good foot now! I haven’t been able to eat that much this week as my work schedule has been crazy but I plan to find remedies around that..

I weigh in this Saturday.. who knows what the future holds with that one…

Jolie

PS. Special thanks to Desiree for the award! She is great… if you don’t have her in your blogroll… you should. Desiree I think you need twitter now that you have a computer at home #justsayin.

March 1, 2010

4lbs down!

So in the last two weeks as of this past Saturday I lost 4lbs. Not too shabby but I could be doing better.

Things that have contributed to this small loss:

not eating at work (work has been hectic. I barely get to drink water so I think my body may have gone into starvation mode and killed some of my weight-loss)

the gym hasnt seen me in 2 wks. I’ve been doing at home workouts. I cleaned all my gym clothes this weekend so off to the gym again with me I go!

I drank… yup.. had about 4 days in the last 2 wks that I had a drink. (no drinking for me for the next 2 wks)

Anywho..  a loss is a loss I am proud.. but I have a LONG WAY TO GO .. I am 20lbs away from my mini-goal of 50lbs.

Once I get there I’ll announce my next mini-goal..

Hope everyone had a good weekend. I spent my weekend with the ex.. it was great.

February 26, 2010

My week in re-wind..

Filed under: What I hate, What I love, jolie, weight-loss journey — Tags: , , , , , — Jolie Fatale @ 1:20 pm

This week has totally gotten away from me. Work has been super hectic as I am the only one in my dept. GO FIGURE.. anywho lets see.

Let’s rewind back to last week.

Friday was a busy day at work.. busy days at work have equaled me not eating which I know cant be good. My ex gchats me and tries to remind me but he’s working too so sometimes he even forgets. Friday night I was making decorations for a Baby Shower. I somehow always end up doing more than I set out to do but I think it turned out lovely. I really should upload the pics off my camera. I have one pic of my paper flower garland in progress that I took via my berry:

my semi complete paper flower garland 1of2

off to the baby shower..balloons in tow

Saturday was the day of the shower. I hadn’t fallen asleep until 1am. I woke up and finished some of the decorations. I had a 8 am Dr.’s appt. I went got my B-12 shot & opted NOT to weigh-in. The baby shower went off without a hitch. It ran behind and I rushed out of there around 5pm. The ex had bought us tickets to go see John Mayer (he’s the best..) so I rushed home, changed and waited for him to pick me up. We went to dinner first and had drinks. We then went to the concert around 9pm. We waited in a huge line to get drinks after we checked out our seats. They were great and on the Acela Club level of the Verizon Center. I forgot my camera which made me sad and then my berry died which made me sadder so I don’t have any pics from the concert but we had a great time. I heard all the songs I wanted to here and sang them loudly. I sat with my head nozzled on his chest with his arm around me for the most part. It felt great. Felt like home ..actually. I was super tired but the concert was AWESOME! We went back to my house and later I passed the hell out..

took 1 pic before my berry died.

Sunday.. ummm I think I sat around the house doing nothing. I should have worked out but I just didn’t have the energy.

Monday.. I was at work til late..barely ate.

Tuesday work was hectic AGAIN.. so I asked the ex if he watned to get drinks. We were deciding on where and whether it be d.c. or md when we just settled on my house. We both are social people but sometimes like to just chill alone.. homebody style. So I grabbed a bottle of Ciroc Coconut and pineapple juice and he grabbed us some Five Guys and we settled in at the house. I ended up only eating a cup of fries and didn’t touch my burger. The guilt wouldn’t let me.

Wednesday.. more work.. late. Ate my burger for dinner after only having coffee and an apple at work

Thursday.. more working late.. and little to no eating.

Today is Friday and the moral of the story is I’m afraid to weigh-in tomorrow. I’m hoping my lack of having time for eating hasn’t caused my body to go into starvation mode. I work in HR and being the only one in a huge organization is tough. I’m hoping to staff up soon. I’m not trying to get back into old habits. I’ve been doing Jillian’s Shred at home but I know I need to get back on my gym/shred/6meals a day routine. The only thing I’ve been following this week is the 3 liters of water a day.

Anyone have any tips on staying on track in spite of hectic work schedules? How was your week?

This was officially the most boring post ever.. SORRY in ADVANCE..well after the fact,

Jolie

February 22, 2010

They say a pictures worth a thousand words..

Filed under: The No Pain No Gain Diaries, jolie, weight-loss journey — Tags: — Jolie Fatale @ 9:21 am

these speak volumes to me.

dec 2009

The last pic is from this morning…. Do you see the difference? I do…

I’ve got my eyes on the prize…  I will lose the remaining weight… i’m 23 lbs down and counting.. I’ve lost 15.8 lbs of FAT.. so those who say “well most of it is probably water weight”

1. water weight is REAL weight..

2. I’ve lost mostly FAT SUCKAS! lol

Anyway… i usually don’t share the non-flattering pics.. but they are me.. it is where I was .. and its good to look at so I don’t go back.

A more substantial post to come….

quote of the day “When you get your eyes off God thats when depression comes”

Jolie

February 16, 2010

so i was wrong..

or my Ex’s scale was wrong because I went to the Doctor on Saturday and I was down -4.8 lbs.. woot woot!

I will be putting in the hard work this week to try to lose at least 3lbs by this Saturday. So..hmm..an update. Lets see…

Valentines Day was yesterday. I really didnt know what to expect because although the ex and I are seeing a lot of each other I’m not really clear on WHAT we ARE? or WHAT we are doing?

I’m not seeing anyone else. I’m not sleeping with anyone else. Not sure if thats his take as well. I guess I should ask. Anywho, in all our snowedindome (yup made up the word) I never said a thing about Valentine’s Day. When it comes to himI like to enjoy the moment and not talk about heavy topics. So on Sunday morning we spoke and he asked me to Dinner. We went to a great Dinner, had good conversation and came back to my house and went to sleep. IT was nice. I realized again how much I truly love him. He’s the love of my life. I can honestly say that.. if the man asked me to marry him. I would.. (SHOCKER ..)

Anywho. I was off today. I only ventured out to help discuss plans for a baby shower for one of my friends. The shower is on Saturday. THE ex (geez he needs a better name on here) bought us tickets to the John Mayer concert on Saturday as well so I am PUMPED!

This week (Wednesday) starts Lent. I’m not really giving up anything this year. I want to insure that whatever I do actually stays with me throughout the year soooooooo.. I’m going to:

Go to the gym for at least 30 mins of cardio a day every day of the week for the duration of Lent.  What are you giving up for Lent?

Anywho. Things are going.. everyday has its ups and downs but in general I am well. I’m learning to have patience in regards to me and the Ex. I realize that I was wrong on many accounts at the end of our relationship that although the time apart made both of us grow I dont want to spend my life without him in it in some capacity. So I’ll wait for the “title” again.. and try to just enjoy our time together.

My weight-loss to me has been slow. 20 lbs in 2.5 months doesnt seem like a lot.. but progress is a slow process.

So is there anything about my journey you’d like me to blog more often about?

XOXO,

Jolie

February 1, 2010

Lack of Fiber..

Filed under: The No Pain No Gain Diaries, jolie, weight-loss journey — Tags: , , , — Jolie Fatale @ 1:58 pm

thats my excuse for WHY I did not weigh-in on Saturday. Despite all my workouts and eating I think I left out Fiber this week and unfortunately felt really heavy.. not gonna go into the TMI .. but I need FIBER..

when I told my ex I decided not to weigh-in on Saturday when I went to my Dr. to get my B-12 shot he said “you afraid of a number” I replied “YUP.”

So on Saturday I went out and purchased Fiber One bars.. they are pretty darn good.  So effective immediately I will only be weighing in every 2 weeks. I cant take the pressure!

MY weekend:

Friday: went to the gym for a good 2hrs (didnt make the 3 hrs). Before I went to the gym I talked to the ex and he invited me over for the evening so I went there Friday night and hung out with him and ended up spending the night. It was nice.

Saturday: woke up and went to the Dr. to get my B-12 shot. I think started shopping and preparing for a party that I was going to throw my friend at my house. Which included homemade enchiladas, guacamole, rice, beans and lots of liquor. The snow dampened those plans as the predicted  2-3 inches turned into 7-14 inches. My friend decided to postpone her bday plans and I didnt want to get snowed in by myself. The ex and I talked about who would make the trek him to my house or me to his. I have an suv he has a 2 door sporty car so I volunteered to come that way. I grabbed 2 of the bottles I purchased for the party and picked up some kfc (grilled chicken for me) and headed to his house. We ended up watching tv and drinking.  It was fun..

Sunday: We woke up he cooked breakfast. Yummy grits, eggs and bacon.  Yes I counted the calories and watched my portions. My friend gchatted me around 1pm telling me she wanted to have her party and that she would tell people to be at my house at 5pm (she’s bossy and i’m nice) so I left the comfort of laying on the exes lap to go home and start preparing the food. He opted not to attend the shindig. I cooked, entertained and had people over my house until 1:30 am. I’m very proud of myself. I had about 2 tablespoons of guac, 5 blue corn chips, 1 enchilada and NO LIQUOR!!!!!!!!! I surprised myself. I drank about 3 liters of water during the party and the party goers went through about 6 bottles. FUN times were had. I wish the ex would have came but .. he didnt.. not sure why. Sometimes I want to ask him if he’s seeing other people. I mean we have no title even though we hang out a lot. I just dont want to get sucked in all for not. Although I’m already sucked in.. I love him. Never stopped loving him even though I was the one who broke it off.  After lots of thought and getting out of my head I know he’s the ONE .. just have to keep proving to him that I’m in it to win it!( him)

So there you have it. I kept my calorie goals all weekend. I need to try and perfect this thing that I’m doing. I really should plan better. How was your weekend?

Jolie

January 29, 2010

Checking-In

Filed under: The No Pain No Gain Diaries, jolie, weight-loss journey — Tags: , , , — Jolie Fatale @ 5:05 pm

Hello EVERYONE!

Thanks for all the comments and the encouragement..

First the bad news.. I havent been in the gym the last 2 days but I have maintained my calories and only been eating 1200 calories a day.

I will be in the GYM tonight because tomorrow I weigh-in. I’ve been debating if I should weigh-in this week or do it every 2 wks but I think I want to see if I lost weight this week to see the effects of the exercise and calorie counting.

I will probably spend a good 3 hours in the gym tonight .. hopefully I will muster up a enough strength to burn over 1,200 cals.

I am proud to say that I did turn down several invites to go out tonight drinking and eating.. I just cant do it to myself.

I’m not shutting down my life entirely but I have a serious problem when it comes to consumption of drinks. I don’t drink at home (although I have plenty of liquor there) but when I’m out with my friends 1 drink turns to 2 which turns to at least 7.

Which can total up to about 1,400 calories.. and most know vodka makes you hungry and boom there you go .. the daily limit of an average human being in calories will be consumed for the day which would probably be well over 2,500 if I ate during the day.. until I can just say one drink and be content with sitting there I have to limit my going out.

Does anyone else have this problem? Or am I the only social alky?

Anyway… have a good weekend. I will be working out allllllllllllllll weekend with a bday party thrown in the mix tomorrow. WISH ME LUCK

Jolie

January 27, 2010

I love him and I fugged it all up..

FIRST A RANT:

I swear that girl named Karma she is a batch! The ex and I have hung out with him everyday since Saturday. So you might be asking, “why are you sad?” Well it feels kind of weird picking up where we kind of left off with no TITLES.. I’m a title kind of girl.. I’m a serial monogamist…it just doesn’t FEEL right but yet it does. I’m happier when I’m around him, we laugh, we joke its just EASY..

Anyway, enough of my Carl Thomas ..Emotional self.. and back to telling you about my workouts.

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My workouts have been great! I’ve been getting in a good 60 minutes or more in the gym since Friday. I skipped Monday. I’ve been maintaining my calories and drinking all my water.

I’ve been at a calorie deficit the last few days as I only try to eat 1,200 calories a day which doesn’t always happen and I sometimes like yesterday end up at 900 calories and then work off around 700-800 in the gym. I’ve been trying to research around the effects of doing this. I’m not trying to lose any muscle just FAT. So I will see what the results come out to be on Saturday when I weigh-in. The weigh-in is not only for weight but bmi, water retention, fat on my limbs.. really all inclusive. It also tells me how much weight I am in muscle.

Today I ate:

Breakfast: Strawberry, Banana Smoothie: 448 cals

Snack: Apple: 70 cals

Lunch: Spicy Italian Sub 6 inch  ( I didn’t pack my lunch today because I was supposed to have a work meeting) : 550

Dinner: Havent had dinner yet but most likely I will eat the leftover pasta I made which is 329 calories a serving; I have included the recipe below:

Farfalle with Sausage, Cannellini Beans, and Kale

Use a vegetable peeler to shave fresh Parmesan cheese on top of this rustic pasta dish.

Yield: 6 servings (serving size: 1 3/4 cups pasta mixture and 2 teaspoons cheese)

Ingredients

  • 8  ounces  uncooked farfalle (bow tie pasta)
  • 1/4  cup  oil-packed sun-dried tomatoes
  • 1 1/2  cups  chopped onion
  • 8  ounces  hot turkey Italian sausage
  • 6  garlic cloves, minced
  • 1  teaspoon  dried Italian seasoning
  • 1/4  teaspoon  crushed red pepper
  • 1  (14-ounce) can fat-free, less-sodium chicken broth
  • 1  (16-ounce) package fresh kale
  • 1  (15-ounce) can cannellini beans, rinsed and drained
  • 1  ounce  shaved fresh Parmesan cheese (about 1/4 cup)

Preparation

Cook pasta according to package directions, omitting salt and fat. Drain, reserving 1 cup cooking liquid; keep warm.

Drain tomatoes in a small sieve over a bowl, reserving 2 teaspoons oil; slice tomatoes. Heat a large Dutch oven over medium heat. Add sliced tomatoes, reserved 2 teaspoons tomato oil, onion, and sausage to pan; cook 10 minutes or until sausage is browned, stirring to crumble. Add garlic to pan; cook 1 minute. Add seasoning, pepper, and broth to pan. Stir in kale; cover and simmer 5 minutes or until kale is tender. Stir in pasta, reserved 1 cup cooking liquid, and beans.

Nutritional Information

Calories:
329 (25% from fat)
Fat:
9g (sat 2.2g,mono 3g,poly 2.3g)
Protein:
18.7g
Carbohydrate:
45.7g
Fiber:
5g
Cholesterol:
26mg
Iron:
4mg
Sodium:
669mg
Calcium:
204mg

January 25, 2010

And just like that…

I’m relentless… at achieving my goals. I have been to the gym everyday since the first time I stepped on the elliptical. Everyday that I’ve gone to the gym I’ve set a new goal and achieved it.

My goal yesterday was to go a full 60 minutes going at a speed of 5.0. I am still on level 1 but its only my 2nd week and trying not to burn out.

I am still doing the 1200 calories a day. I switch up and go to 1500 cals every other day just to shock my body a little bit. I drink over 130 ounces of water a day.

I’m well on my way to achieving another my new goal of 20 lbs a month. It took me over a month and a half to lose 16lbs but I was trying to find my focus and my rhythm. I believe I’ve found it.

Emotionally I feel better when I workout actually its giving me the same freedom I sometimes found sitting at the bar having a drink. You know CAREFREE. I’ve been dealing with some things lately.. you know the usual money .. relationships.

I actually started this year talking to my ex from last year. The one I ended things with for a myriad of reasons. Reasons now with a little more clarity were kind of stupid and could have been worked out.  We had a really great relationship. He was a great guy who loved me, cared about me, made me laugh and I found 3 things that bothered me and ran with it. OH and RAN too .. Just broke it off. So we’ve been hanging out. Talking a lot. I asked him on Friday basically if we could get back together. He said and I quote:

“i’m not really sure how to reply, i want to be with you again but I know my life will do a 180 once I have custody of (my daughter). We went thru plenty in the 5+ months we were together, I kinda just want to take it slow this time around. if were in it for the long haul then we can afford it.So to be clear… I do want to be with you again, I just wanna make sure it can last this time”

I guess I understand yet I don’t.. but I guess its not for me to understand. I’m the one who ended it. I’m the one who threw up the walls. Granted he asked to be in my life again as friends in the New Year but I guess I cant expect him to accept me back so quickly. I just don’t have patience. I need him in my life now not later and it just hurts that I had him and then somehow talked myself into letting him go.  I think I do this often ..self sabotage.

I am making a promise to myself not to do that with the weight-loss or in life in general moving forward.

XOXO,

Jolie

January 22, 2010

My Weigh-In is tommorrow

Filed under: jolie, weight-loss journey — Tags: , , , , — Jolie Fatale @ 2:25 pm

I’m a little nervous but hopefully I’ve lost something..

fingers crossed,

Jolie

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